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    [Storm Queen] Akaru Chiyo

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    Personal Information

    Name: Akaru Chiyo
    Alias: Storm Queen | Yukianesa | [The Demon of Tokyo] | Subject 001 | Bitch Puddin' | Oniba-chan
    Age: 18
    Birthday: April 9th | Aries
    Race: Gravity Child | Brain Charger
    Height: 5'0" | 153 cm
    Weight: 115 lbs | 52 kg
    Hair Style: Normally worn in pig tails with straight cut bangs
    Hair Color: Black
    Eye Color: Royal Purple
    Attire:

    Chiyo can be seen in a wide variety of attire. During the school day, she is most often seen in the school uniform of Miyabigaoka, including a band across her upper left arm which denotes her as the Chairwoman of the Disciplinary Committee. This uniform is a red pleated miniskirt, a small corset like black with tails buttons and pockets, a white button up shirt and a small black bow, and completed by a black formal coat shawl. Outside of school, her clothing choices can be called a 'glamorous punk goth hybrid'. She is most often seen wearing stripped tights and short skirts with a bodice underneath. Her nails painted with every finger blue except the ring finger on each hand. When doing official duties of the Black Order, she is most often found in that uniform. Which was recently redesigned by the Sky King to be a white uniform like the rest of the generals of the Black Order. This one has gold trim and thigh highs with a double breasted set of buttons a tie and other such pieces, two particularly extravagant additions are a wide bill white and gold hat and a long white cape. Outside of riding as a General of the Black Order, Chiyo is most often seen in her riding gear, which seems to have changed recently as well. It includes a triple layered red and black skirt with a small chain belt. The outfit is completed by an assortment of accessories including leather holsters for a short sword and a knife as well as leather finger-less gloves and jewelry. It seems to fit the personality of extravagance that seems to come with being a member of the Black Order. In between these things, Chiyo has been shown to wear a wide variety of outfits to fit into the public spaces she enters.


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    Personality:

    Chiyo can be described as possessing a 'Kuudere' personality type. She always seems to be cool and in complete control of herself (and everything and everyone else) this seems to be a direct result of her obsessive compulsive disorder. This is often expressed as a distinct desire to dominate that borders upon sadism. She almost never speaks more than necessary to make a point, but she will often say blunt or completely ego shattering things to people without considering that it may hurt their feelings. Chiyo is often completely honest, because she believes lying to be its own type of evil which she can't abide by. She can be described as exceedingly responsible as she is always thinking of how activities will play out in the long run, and though she doesn't like being in leadership, she does so... because she'd rather make the rules than follow them. This leads do a massive superiority complex in the young woman which manifests in all aspects of her life, she simply hates feeling inferior and will do everything in her power to not feel that way. Despite an apparent inability to show real emotions, when comfortable Chiyo is extremely expressive and quite talkative. She really enjoys her friends and will do anything for them, it just takes a while for her to get to the point where she can show them that kindness and not just the cold personality she puts forth for public consumption. The difference between the personality she has for her friends and the one she has for everyone else, makes people believe the girl is bipolar (some even going so far to say that she runs 'hot and cold'). Though her personality can be described as prudish and she seems to have no interest in anyone, she's actually sexually adventurous and will say heinously blunt sexual things in the company of the right people. Often times because someone has asked her a question which she has chosen to answer honestly. Chiyo maintains a distinct love of small children and seems to be very fond of cute things in general though she thinks of it as a weakness and won't admit it to most people. This most often shows as a possession of something she finds to be simultaneously cute and dangerous looking (like a snowman with razor teeth). Along with her apparent differences in personality the girl seems to be in constant need of physical activity, as such she seems to spend most of her day running around as much as possible so she can concentrate and do the things she has to do. She seems to possess very high intelligence and good observational skills though she often doesn't use them on herself. When observing people she classifies them as animals, a trait which is apparently the marking of a hunter in her father's family. She specifically fancies herself a Chimera, (a conglomeration of apex predators specifically), everyone else falls into one of three categories predator, prey, or scavenger, the last of which she doesn't tolerate as beings because they have nothing to offer in exchange and they eat away at her sense of fairness.

    Miscellaneous:

    • Chiyo's favorite foods are foods which include lemons (particularly sweets, especially pudding).
    • When speaking Chiyo will often use the word 'fuck' to start a sentence.
    • 'Kamikorose' is both a threat and a flirtation device (mostly it depends on the person she's speaking to).
    • Chiyo has physical fangs in her mouth, but she's only ever bitten one person.
    • She's physically the smallest (shortest) adult person she knows and has a complex about it.
    • Chiyo will often go out of her way to make Shoichi happy, she wants to see his 'real smile'... this is her biggest secret.
    • When she is particularly fond of an individual, Chiyo has a strange habit of acquiring a collar for them to wear... it is how she marks them as belonging to her.


    Biography:WIP

    Rider Information

    Rider Shadow: Chimera
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    Road: Blizzard Road | Crystal Road | Tsunami Road | Geyser Road (Jinx's Brain Charger)

    Blizzard Road works on several principles as an advancement of the Bloody Road. The first principle is thermo-regulation. This temperature regulation is achieved by controlling the amount of blood flow to the extremities of the rider so that they are unaffected by the drastic temperature changes of the Blizzard Road. This is achieved through a conscious (or unconsciously) slow heart beat and general metabolic rate. The second principle is impairment. In the sense of manipulating one's surroundings and making it harder for others to exist within 'your' space. The third principle is restraint, causing physical harm to your opponent in the form of contact with your ATs. Such damage creates for the other rider an even greater level of impairment which borders upon something much greater, the ability to completely stop those who encroach upon you or those you get close to. The final principle of this road is the ability to determine which edge of the wheels to use to effortlessly increase the speed and power of a run. This will make riders of this road appear to reach max speed with grace and shift the axis of their run in any direction without having to slow down at all.

    Type: Speed | Power | Trick
    Team: The Black Order | Chimera
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    Acquisition - The ultimate ability of Chiyo's eye, is a strange ability to possess the ability of other eyes reflected within them. As long as she has access to a person through sight, she is able to borrow the way their vision works. The mirror theory of her eyes, seems to work over time to do this, and she uses them to reflect the vision she presently has into the eyes of others. This is a bit of a taxing thing to do, but because her eyes possess 10 different points of vision, she can do this with up to nine other special eyes at a time. This is said to be the ultimate ability of the Apex Predator, to see and consume and build unto itself. It is visually shown, as the special property of the acquired eye, appearing within the pupil of the girl's eye which is using it.

    Allocation - Said to be the inverse of Chiyo's ultimate ability, it allows her to share the vision she'd acquired with others. The ability to give away that which she's taken from someone else, seems to be rather taxing for the girl, but is even more taxing to the recipient. As Chiyo's own mind is made to deal with the complexities of vision, other people can potentially suffer mind breaking pain at the extra vision offered by the girl. This as an aside, after using the ability a headache is likely to follow even if someone shows the mental ability to process the other eyes. This ability seems to be directly related to Chiyo's own sense of fairness and isn't something she has to do, but rather something she likes to do.




    Predator Eye - An apparent advancement of the girl's Twinkle Eye she presents with an odd variant allowed only by the forced activation of her genetic eye variant without the exposure to another of it's kind. When she focuses on the eyes of another individual, the use of mirror theory allows her the ability to hand out orders and enforce her will upon them. Mostly this is a combination of a psychological trick combined with Chiyo's own dominating personality. When active, her eyes show their usual rippled state and her pupil shrinks from an elongated slit to a small concentric circle. Beyond this three of the ripples in her eyes each have three extra pupils on them shaped like tomoe. Including her own, this makes the total number of her points of vision 10. With all of these different points of vision, Chiyo is able to see many different details about people. The complexity of her brain, allows her to layer all this information into a single imagine and make snap decisions about her prey, their physical and emotional states as well how much force the girl will need to exert to force her will. This gives Chiyo the ability to 'see the future' of the prey she hunts or the smaller predators she dominates. The ability to make others back down with sight, is animalistic at best, leading Chiyo to call herself an Apex Predator, and top of the food chain in most cases. According to Mukuro this type of vision was developed as a result of Chiyo's semi-constant need to size up the people who challenged her who were much bigger than she was while she was outside of the Tower as a small child during the first parts war.
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    Scan - The most basic use of multiple points of Chiyo's vision. She learned to know every capability of a body just by looking at it. She can determine the height, weight, strength, speed and flexibility, plus the faults and strengths of their separate body-parts, for example their legs or shoulders, an advanced kind of biometrics. According to Mukuro the numbers she assigns to people are all in her head, and simply how she chooses to quantify all of the information she sees in a single moment.

    The Manifestation of Will - Though her eyes, Chiyo is capable of manifesting her will in other people. This is seen in ways both slight and major. The simplest manifestation involves her dominating use of other people's sight to see what they see. It is the most basic and primitive use of her Predator Eye. And allows her to see from an angle her head is not currently turned towards. It is most often used when the girl has reflective surfaces. The more complex form uses mirror theory to give people mental commands which they are inclined to follow because they are tricked into thinking that they want to do whatever it is she ordered or asked. She is said to use this ability cockily determining by using her scan ability how much control an individual will need to do what she says... and then using just that much. This is controlled output wise by the number of points of vision she focuses on a single person. Making 1 the weakest and 10 the almost absolute undeniable order. Though there are apparently those who are capable of resisting the girl, they tend to be the types who can say no to the girl on a regular basis. Clever people, really stupid people, and those who are too free to be caged by the will of another. Other people with animalistic tendencies also have some resistance to the orders Chiyo gives, but she finds that they would generally do what she advises regardless.



    The Zone

    Trigger(s)

    • Killing Intent - This for Chiyo is the desire to completely end someone and is how she naturally falls into the Zone.
    • Supremacy - This is a secondary and different trigger, meant to allow her the ability to be in the Zone while maintaining control over her thoughts. It manifests itself as a desire to control and be better than those she's around. In the young woman's words 'Everything between the Sky and the Ground' is hers.

      It is unknown to Chiyo which of these triggers is stronger for her. She assumes it is the Killing Intent.

    Special Skill

    • Change of Pace - It is the ability to shift velocity without there being an obvious transition. For Chiyo on the ground this is the ability to flawlessly change direction, to go from a standstill to reach top speed or greater and stop on a dime. With the ability of flight added to her ATs this can even be related to her in the air though the ability itself is best seen on the ground. The random changes in direction and the shifts in her body are perfected movements, giving her the ability to move without limit within the Zone.


    R.E.A.D. Layout

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    Storm Regalia: Crazy Diamond - The Storm Regalia is a conglomeration of various mechanisms and cores from regalia placed into a single pair of ATs. The Regalia itself is the basic outlet for Chiyo's Blizzard Road and allows for the compression and super cooling of water in order to create snow and ice. The pieces which make up this Regalia include Chiyo's Original Leviathan Road Regalia: Bloody Armor: Leviathan's Fang, the original Horn Regalia: Satan's Skull (cores given by her elder brother), the Second Generation Gem Regalia (given by Usagi in the place of the Gem King Kae), the Original Thunder Regalia: Thunder Set (given by Kuchiki Kohaku), and the Wind Regalia: Bagram Strike (given by Takeuchi Shoichi). This combination gives the girl a wide range of variation and allows for the expressive of a massive storm big enough to interact with the Sky and the Ground simultaneously and everything in between.



    In its inactive form this regalia takes the form of a pair of high class ball roller AT boots, which extend with a sock up to the girl's mid thigh. They have two long hollow heels which sit side by side with a large space between them. The heels themselves are razor sharp like the edge of a blade and allow the girl to choose whether she rides on the inner or outer edge giving her even more speed in her reaction time. The ball roller wheels at the toe (of which there are three) give her more flexibility and the latent ability to turn 360 degrees on a dime. Her natural speed, giving her an advantage in these that even normal wheels do not allow. Additionally because of the large space between the two heels on her feet, she is able to use the ice based tricks of her road, even in this form and make fangs even though the mechanics of the ball roller type wheels wouldn't normally allow it. (A non-combat addition is about 15 extra centimeters of height for the relatively tiny Storm Queen).

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    When active, Chiyo's regalia shifts up her legs, taking the form of long standing heeled bracers with the wheels and under pieces shifting into large spikes. It becomes the hover type of regalia, completely with large bladed wings and spikes running along its sides. This allows complete use and access of all of Chiyo's abilities as well as added stability up her legs to keep her from injuring herself ever again.
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    Infinity Atmosphere:

    Subjugation of Heaven: The Ceaseless Whiteout - The Infinity Atmosphere of Chiyo is a wide range of temperature influence around the girl after the activation of her Regalia. The Ceaseless Whiteout lowers the temperature of the space surrounding surrounding her and expanding exponentially over time. Snow and Ice are created as she moves and as one moves closer to her as the epicenter they are more affected by the temperature change being slowed and maimed as the temperature drops. It is working in similar principle to her former use of the Infinity Jail, and can be thought of as its ultimate advancement as instead of simply stopping the flight of those around her, it dominates the weather and atmospheres of those around her. Ice and snow are created to scatter light around her person. Light is distributed differently in the white out, there are no shadows and no easy way to predict the movement of the wind, it is a blinding place which makes it so that Chiyo is the ultimate predator within the realm.

    The Undeniable Domination: Absolute Zero - The Infinity Atmosphere of the Crystal Road, the advancement of Chiyo's ice capabilities hits its maximum. She is able to exert the powers of cold to chill things down to the molecular level, stopping their movements and forcing uniformity in their structure. This domination is a manifestation of Chiyo's will and creates within it, the order of everything. When this happens it seems that the girl is capable of stopping tricks and even the Infinity Atmospheres of other King Class Riders.

    Tricks:

    Fang - Chiyo retains the ability to create Fangs from her former mastery of the Bloody Road. While it still uses the 0-100-0 ratio to move to top speed break and create a burst of wind. The upgrade of her regalia to create ice has the added effect of creating them in a frozen state and her added muscle control makes them large and serrated like the teeth of a knife. These fangs are cold in addition to retaining the slicing and exploding properties of her originals. Beyond that the addition of ice makes them fly longer than normal because the ice gives an additional buffer to the Fang itself. In the same way, the fang gives a buffer to the ice, making the attack itself more resistant to fire than normal abilities because even if it melts, it is still at its core a slicing wind based fang. This fang creation becomes even more advanced with the activation of Chiyo's regalia, as it creates something she calls a Frostbite Fang, which is made of the ice which when it makes contact spreads cold and explodes in a manner similar to her old exploding fangs. What she would call the final form of her fangs, are created using the principles of her crystal road, and create fangs in which ice crystals are clashed together and separated as the fang itself travels through the air, this in turn creates an electrical charge throughout the entirety of the fang itself giving it even more destructive potential in addition to the damage it does regularly. Chiyo calls this fang the Crystalline Fang.

    Frost Nova - A left over from Chiyo's variation of the Lather Road. This trick is essentially one of her frozen disk bubbles. It retains both the cutting and explosive potential of her former bubbles with the added shell of ice to freeze and still its surroundings. Because it is a hollow type of disk it flies and maneuvers in a very odd way, making their flight patterns hard to follow. Additionally the size of these can be varied from the size of a golf ball (in the creation of a barrage) to the size of basket balls (but fired off in singular form). Because of the cutting and slicing potential, if they make direct contact and then explode like the Lather Road bubbles they cause a flash freezing effect on what they make contact with.

    Winter's Kiss - A trick developed by Chiyo after having been taught two different kinds of strike by Kanda Yuu and Takeuchi Roze. This is made on a slightly different mechanic from her fangs and other bloody road based tricks. It creates a diamond like blade which travels the length of a normal fang, but is straight like a blade is. This is created by use of a 0-100-0-100-0 ratio. Where there is a kick which tightens and stops worked into the kick which relaxes upon its release. Putting together the two kinds of tension use that Chiyo was taught, the relaxed into strong stance of Kanda and the tense into relief taught by Roze. It is the ultimate in her muscle controlled techniques and is said to rob people of their passion as it is a blade created of ice which seems to stun those it pierces.

    Lotus Ice Ring - An advanced version of an old trick of Chiyo's she uses the ease of the ice created bonds to create a fang which is completely circular in nature by cutting the ratio from 0-100-0 to 0-100. She does this at a speed sufficient enough to create a large circular ring of ice which has a diameter the length of her leg. This ring can be subsequently kicked outwards creating a cascading halo of ice which has the power to cut through and freeze that which it touches.

    Slow Time - A trick of Chiyo's developed while spending too much time with the Flame King of the First Generation, she exerts her control over cold to chill the opponents brain. This variation in temperature causes the opponents brain to react in a way similar to the Time trick. Only in this case instead of making it appear that user has stopped time, it instead creates a singular moment of cryostasis, which locks the opponents movements for an extended period of time presently about 1 minute. It seems to wear off after that time leaving the person to believe they are picking up from the second after the trick took effect. Since Chiyo remains unaffected by it, there appears to be a vast discrepancy in her own speed while this trick is being performed, but she may not actually be moving much faster, only taking advantage of the downtime she forces onto her opponents.

    Ice Dragon - A trick of Chiyo's which creates a dragon of ice which seems to flow from her ATs in a flowing motion towards an opponent. Contact with it causes freezing in what it manages to touch, in addition to the fact that it can potentially cause concussive damage as it is fired from the 0-100-0 ratio of the Bloody Road Principles. In addition its movement is forced by the manipulation of the air through the hallowed ice created by her ATs.

    Purgatory Ice Night: Arctic Dungeon - Chiyo creates a trail of ice that tracks from her person under her opponent that spreads out to created a multi-sided snowflake on the ground. Once the bottom is in place, it erupts upwards forming a cage which entraps the victim, forcing them to feel the sub-arctic temperatures her regalia creates within. After about four seconds the cage is capable of freezing the thing within solid. This can subsequently be shattered causing the death of whatever happened to be trapped inside of it. Or left to thaw, depending on the mood. It is stated that without help, it will take the thing trapped all night to thaw, and unlike her time trick, the person's mind isn't frozen they are fully aware of their frozen status giving them time to think about their actions... thus purgatory.

    Lingering Ice Doll - Chiyo is able to create clones of herself out of Ice and because of the nature of ice they are tangible and fairly sturdy against attacks. It gives her the ability to distract people and leave them in her place to tank attacks while she maneuvers for the counterattack.

    Ray of Frost - When Chiyo kicks in a straight line she is able to fire a laser of compressed ice and wind towards a target which is capable of piercing it and freezing the wound on contact. This trick is like the Air Shells created by her brother's Horn Road.

    Ice Vacuum Wall - Chiyo's trick which creates multiple layers of thin ice using air between them in order to strengthen them. This can be applied to many of her tricks and allows said ice creation the ability to withstand flames helping to reduce her rather obvious weakness to fire based riders.

    Subjugation of Heaven - Chiyo exerts her control over ice and snow as a weather condition and creates in the clouds a massive snow fall over an unspecified target area using principles of the Gaia and Rising Roads. When describing this colloquially it is said that the snow fall reaches as far as the eye can see. At ground level it creates snow and ice crystals in the hexagonal shape. This particular snow, when it makes contact with a physical form creates bursting ice crystals from small flakes which freeze a target. The more they are covered the more solidly they become frozen and the less capable of movement they are. While in the Zone this trick is called Frozen Heaven Hundred Flower Funeral: Chiyo opens up a huge hole in the clouds, through which a large amount of snow floats down onto her opponent. As the snow comes into contact with the opponent, ice flowers sprout all over their body, instantly trapping them in a pillar of ice. Chiyo has claimed that when the last of the 100 petals falls, the life of the one who touched it will be over. She generally shies away from using this ability as she has no control over whom it affects. The snowfall range is so great any ally and foe can be caught by it, and thus risk exposure to her subfreezing temperatures.

    Censure of the White Haze - Chiyo uses her extreme control of the temperature to lower her own body temperature drastically and using principles of the Gaia Road, creates her body in a frozen form which is more resistant to attacks and capable of being used as an armored more combative form. This allows her the ability to begin freezing victims by any method of physical contact and though her body is frozen solid she suffers no extra ill effects maintaining her general speed and mobility. In effect this trick turns her into the ice demon Yuki-Onna fitting both her personality and the nickname given to her by the First Generation Flame King.

    Diamond Dust - A trick learned through exploration with Shoichi, it is Chiyo's only time dallying into wind manipulation and hints at her rather impatient nature. Instead of manipulating the cold winds with the palms of her hands and skillfully manipulating the pressure. Chiyo grabs at it, punching forward after achieving what she feels is the right amount of pressure to achieve an icy burst of wind as a punch which pushes forward creating a beam of angry ice riddled wind much like a moon drop in its inception but with Chiyo's characteristic aggression added to it. This trick can be advanced a bit, adding in a downward fall after the collection of cold air and an extra hand and requiring the small girl to brace herself with her legs apart. This motion creates a beam of frozen pressure fired at an enemy horizontally to devastating effect. This form of the trick is called Aurora Execution. Beyond this, is a trick called the Aurora Thunder attack in which she performs the same motions as the Aurora Execution only to separate her hands at the end of the downward motion causing a spiraling wind which breaks apart the inner ice molecules causing a static charge within and lacing the attack with electrical energy which is trapped by the centrifugal force of the trick itself and put into the beam.


    Diamond Dust: Restoration - an odd ability of Chiyo's that leads itself to her sense of fairness and her desire not to harm anyone beyond what is necessary. It seems to be an ability which uses multiple mechanisms of her regalia to reform broken bonds of things by restructuring their atoms and recreating bonds which were previously separated. Such is a very delicate thing and requires the utmost concentration of the young woman. Beyond this, if it takes place on a living or sentient being, it requires that being to have already been put into a state of cryostatsis. The bonds can physically be reinstated in such a way, but beyond that the body can restart itself as if it never stopped if that is the case. This doesn't work on things which are truly dead, as death is something that cryostatsis cannot fix. Beyond this the young woman also cannot use this trick on herself, as it is impossible for her to break the molecular bonds of her own person.


    Crystal Raigeki - Chiyo creates massive crystals of perfectly uniform and frozen ice and smashes them together using the wind. In so doing she creates static electricity between them on a massive scale creating a lightning strike controlled with the Thunder Regalia mechanism included in her Regalia. This concentrated lightning strike, can occur during the middle of a storm.

    Crystal Wall - Chiyo creates before herself a wall of organized ice crystals in a densely packed but light organization. These crystals are angled in such a way as to reflect light and appear to be translucent in nature. But in actuality the trick itself is a wall of atoms arranged in such a way as to absorb shock while redistributing the pressure of the wall itself. It makes it so that strong attacks against the crystal wall only strengthen it further adding to the arrangement of the atoms until they are so perfect it cannot be destroyed.

    Crystal Beacon - A trick which creates multiple diamond like gems across a large space. These gems refract light at extreme angles because of their dense patterns an organization, leading to a dangerous light show of lasers which burn that which they touch and have the ability to blind in high concentrations. This trick though isn't nefarious at the outset and could be used simply to draw attention to a specific area or create a distraction while another more complex trick is enacted.

    Crystal Tree - A trick in which Chiyo separates the bonds of ice around a person to restrict their movements. It is made through achieving amorphosous crystal structure which bends and stretches but doesn't necessarily break and is done with a twisting motion of her legs and ankles. Such will capture an individual and tighten but not to the point of breaking thus ensuring the capture and allowing a restriction which is similar to a trick the girl had as a very young child. This is used specifically to bind the movements of the arms or legs but not usually both.

    Demonic Mirroring Ice Crystals - Chiyo creates a cage around her opponents similar to the Cage of Fangs, in this case... it is a very specific number of ice crystal mirrors which make up the cage. The mirrors themselves are about as long as Chiyo is tall and number 21 in total. If done on the ground, there is a ring of 12, then a ring of eight angled upwards, then a single one stretched over the top of the dome. This set up allows the girl to attack from all angles, her body is reflected in each mirror and she's able to break and create them behind her, giving the illusion of an endless mirrored plane which she has absolute control over. When combined with her special eye, she is able to predict the movements of her opponents from all angles, and respond accordingly. And since the mirrors can instantly be remade, it is said to be inescapable. This trick, is one based on one of Chiyo's original ones and taken to a far extreme.

    Brain Charger: Jinx
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    Zone Trick :: Crystal Abundance - While in the Zone, Chiyo uses her regalia to create and break multiple crystals of ice. This constant theory of creation and separation of bonds, creates light which the girl dissipates over countless other crystals. This becomes a suffocating and overwhelming number of crystals which fill the air and restrict the physical movements of everything caught within it. As these broken crystals are sharp and retain their cutting potential. After a numerous amount of these are created everyone is generally locked into place, but Chiyo has the ability to use the mechanisms of her regalia to make herself immune to the force paralysis of the ice crystals she's created allowing her to move freely, and often violently in this new world she's created.

    Shoichi x Chiyo: Fang Grind - A tag-team move where Shoichi 'grinds' one of Chiyo's Fangs, simultaneously increasing the lethality of the Fang and the distance Shoichi travels.

    Shoichi x Chiyo: North Winds Maelstrom - Chiyo initiates this trick by creating a flurry of ice, and Shoichi adds his wind to create a blizzard that pummels the opponent with freezing winds and solid chunks of ice.

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    Chiyo's Diary


    Akaru Chiyo is a girl who speaks very few words, but she is known to write many. She keeps a diary which contains all the things she's thought but not really spoken aloud. It contains every reaction and interaction she's had as well as detailing how she feels about any particular experience or person. She writes in her diary religiously and its well-ordered contents are probably part of her manifestation of her obsessive compulsive disorder. Even so, snippets of her writing can be found below and address many plot and personality points of Chiyo's life.



    • April 8th (Present Year)
      "I flew today... and it was spectacular. I saw everything and it was like being a completely different person. At the top of the world... or in this case the Sky Tree it was like nothing else below me mattered at all. I won't go into a lot of detail, about how pissed I was when upon finally reaching the top only to find a Black Order Emblem there. It had to be Shoichi... no one else would even think to go that high. I was pissed for about three seconds, but then I realized... he probably would have taken me up there if I had asked. And though it felt nice to be up there all on my own... I wish I'd just asked him so I wouldn't have been alone. Maybe I should, but I feel like that would be weird."


    • April 9th (Present Year)
      "I met an interesting guy today at that spa Roze sent me to. His name is Yoichi, and seeing him makes me angry. I don't mean that in a normal sort of way either, he's a really nice guy perhaps in the top two of nice guys I know. It's just he's really attractive and it's annoying and I can't really explain why. Beyond that he kind of reminds me of Shoichi. In the same way that Shoichi sometimes reminds me of Roze. I can't really place it but I don't hate the guy... I just can't help but think someone will have a fit and die if they find me hanging out with a blonde guy with 'ichi' in his name. Seriously... it is already thought that I have a thing for blondes and a thing for guys named Ichi. It's as if he was dropped out of the sky to answer some unspoken prayer. Regardless, I really don't hate him, and he made my birthday great. I thought he was gay, but... he's not. But he does god-like things with his tongue <3. He asked me how many times I wanted to finish, with code words, it was creative... like his whole life is an innuendo and he just oozes sex, 'crests' that shit is laughable when you think about the fact that his place of business is called 'The Gleaming Crest'. I never want to be in an enclosed space with him again. I find I am almost incapable of denying myself around him. Well... almost, but he helps... he lets me decide everything and I kind of enjoy that the world doesn't feel like it's closing in on me when it's like that.

      Beyond that... I had a fight with Shoichi today too. I had skipped school and gone to that spa and when I caught up with him in the afternoon... we hung out for a bit. It was strange, I found myself saying the kinds of things I normally think. Like not understanding why anyone would want to hang out with me, not knowing what to do about having already told him I like him... and that sort of thing. He kicked my ass... I suppose I shouldn't run around questioning other people's kindness... particularly Shoichi's... he seems to already know who I am, I suppose it's fine to trust him on that. I got more stuff added to my ATs today, helped pull Usagi-nee out of a rut. And something strange happened between me and Shoichi. I didn't hate it or anything... but it felt dangerous and that was exciting. I don't think I am an exhibitionist or anything... but I think I appreciated the tension and the potential of getting caught just a little. Shoichi is interesting in this way... and it makes me wonder what I am actually missing out on."


    • April 10th (Present Year)
      "My team got wrecked yesterday. I didn't know who did it but I found out later in the night. I was angry, but not really about the team, about the way that entire situation was handled by the idiot adults at the school, being brought to call by none other than Akimo the Beast. This man made my childhood hell, and apparently was content to try and ruin me today as well. Telling everyone that I was apparently responsible for some badass kicking the asses of 32 teens while I was skipping school. I lost it for just a few seconds this morning... I slammed his head into the table he was sitting in front of. His nose broke, but I didn't let him die or anything. I then rather calmly explained to every adult in the room how to do their jobs properly. I came back from that moment, mostly because the Prince was sitting there looking giddy... I suppose I should be setting a better example than slamming a guy's head into a desk in the middle of a meeting. But he had it coming. Shoichi was also there, and that was comforting... more so than I'd thought his presence could be. After talking with Yoichi yesterday, I felt I wasn't giving Shoichi enough credit as a person and as it turned out I was right.

      After school... I avenged my team, though it had to disband for lack of viable members. I was still pretty pissed though, so... I bet the Black Order Emblem on a race with 11 other teams... and that guy Yoichi. He seemed to think I had simply snapped for some reason. That wasn't really a thing, it wasn't even me who decided to bet emblems... I just went along with it because I felt like I could do something about the wrong I was seeing. I just really wanted to eliminate some opportunistic fuck-faces from future competition. I took him along for the ride so he could see that I hadn't actually lost it. For a Flame Road rider, he's slow... I'd hoped for a bit of a new fun... but I don't think he'll be up for it. Though he was still pretty cocky about stuff afterwards. I felt really calm after that... so I did normal stuff. Including getting the Prince what is likely to be his first and only proper tuning. I'm happy for him and he seemed genuinely happy for the first time in ages. I feel like he'll leave pretty soon... but I suppose I couldn't keep him on so short a leash forever. :3

      And then the important thing... I went into the clock tower for the first time in a couple of years. Shoichi opened it up apparently and that place gave me a weird feeling inside. It was like watching my life unfold from an outside perspective. I read an old mini-journal entry and figured out that I've always been pretty indecisive about how I choose to deal with Shoichi. He seemed really annoyed by it... and I kind of understand that now... so I did something I'd been thinking about...

      I kind of aggressively pursued Shoichi for once. I climbed into his lap and before I realized it I was naked and giving myself to him. I thought for a while I should feel bad about that, but I don't. It feels like the best decision I've ever made. It was different not at all what I think I expected. It's odd to think about it now... but I was on top for the first part of that. Literally I was in charge of it and that's probably why I felt okay with it. It was fun and I relaxed so much afterwards. But it was really weird. I thought Shoichi and Yoichi were similar but now I am almost certain they are the same kind of person. Because... Shoichi asked me how many I wanted and I've only ever heard that asked by Yoichi before. I mean... Shoichi wasn't as smooth there wasn't a special code word like 'Crests' but he still asked me how many times I wanted to finish. I asked for four, and he doubled it and then added one more just because. But I don't really have any complaints about that <3



    • April 11th
      "I woke up to my ATs having a fit on the floor. I've never seen anything like that before. According to Shoichi it meant that we were going to party at the Tower. I hadn't been back to that place in ages, but I'd already agreed to go with them and I'm not a liar. So I went. It was weird to do something like that, after sleeping in the clock tower and what not, but it was okay. I was bombarded by old faces when we got there. I didn't remember everything at first... but I am pretty sure I remember everything now. All of these people... and everything I forgot. I almost killed myself once... it was an accident but it's a wonder I haven't been more damaged by not knowing what limits are.

      It turned out the Tower was more like Cram School for us. Apparently, Shoichi taking the Sky Regalia caused some freaky ghost type clone thing. We had to kill. This was only after each of us had a turn with the previous generation. They are an odd group of people, but I am pretty sure I like all of them. Yoichi is part of this, I knew it wasn't possible for him to be as bad as he seemed the other day. He was fun to face, and he wanted to face me. I lost my temper, but I calmed down and that was apparently all he really wanted from me. Oh... and I forgot to mention, their freaky angelic tuner kissed me, tuned me then switched personalities and fought Shoichi. Today was a really weird day overall. But the weirdest thing was that my tuning lead to the development of Ice. I never really considered that it could be a thing before. It makes me wonder how many other things I didn't consider just because it hadn't been done already."



    • April 20th
      "I woke up randomly last night. I'd had a nightmare and I was shivering. To be fair, I don't really remember what it was about or anything like that, but something else struck me in this moment. I've been staying in that hotel room with Shoichi for a few weeks now and we are both really comfortable around each other, but we always start the night on different sides of this enormous bed. Well... when I woke up shivering and I was still a bit delirious Shoichi pulled me into him, really close. Like we were spooning, and I've never done that before. At least not with Shoichi. And that is probably weird, since we've had sex, but... this was different. It felt all close and gentle and I suppose Shoichi is often like that, but I'm not really, I was shocked and half-sleep, but I felt really safe in that moment. And I just drifted back off to sleep... I didn't say anything... and I'm not even sure if he knew I was awake, or if he was actually awake himself. But... I could feel his heart beating against my back and it was nice. I wonder if it would be weird to ask to fall asleep like this... knowing that we've never done it before? I feel like it will be hard to go back to sleeping alone in a huge bed, after finding this odd secret comfort."


    • May 20th
      "I broke my fucking leg. I am not really mad about it anymore, but I was furious when it happened. When I lose my temper like that... I don't think anything through like I am supposed to. Some kid stabbed me while I was flipping shit... I have to learn to calm down. I am really bad at that though. Oddly enough though I am not in a cast, a guy Kuchiki Kohaku he first generation Thunder King fixed it for me. I knew him before... we are old friends with similar ideas. We both like kids and we find them fun... I was a kid to him before. We looked out for some really young ones together. I can't believe I forgot that... I might have to start making flash cards again. I thought I was past forgetting things, but lately I still feel like I am missing something important. And that pisses me off.

      But today wasn't all bad... I broke a record. Actually Shoichi and I did this afternoon. 42 is our new one. He offered me a full day... and I think I might accept that one day. It's weird, it's like nothing about our friendship has changed, I appreciate that but I feel like I should ask him if he's really okay with that. I'm pushy and all, but everyone should be happy when this sort of thing is going on right? I suppose it's something I'll have weeks to ponder while I am not riding my ATs."

    • May 21st
      "My Prince left me. Well, when I say that it sounds a bit dramatic huh? I don't mean like he bowed out and walked away. He tossed transfer papers at me from the gate and told me he was out. It was bitter, I was a little upset wondering why he left me alone. But it was also kind of sweet. I understand after all, that a Prince can't become a King without his own Kingdom. Even so, I was sad to see him go, he meant a lot to me. Not like romantically or anything. Actually when I think about it, it's like my favorite pet running away from home. I just kind of hope he doesn't get into any trouble while he's away from me. I think I am probably asking too much, but I assume I'll see him around sometime. Given, he hasn't beaten me up to this point, I'll probably cross paths with him next as an enemy. Damn shame, I'll miss him.

      After that horrible morning opener though, a certain Tar King found himself in my office. Mukuro is a very weird and skinny man who apparently just wanted the company of someone not an idiot. Which is probably a mild compliment coming from him. He was asking about next choice for second when I explained the Prince had left. He seemed really relieved by that, I don't know why... and suggested Kanda. I can't say I remember him, but I've met him before. And he's a Gravity Child like the rest of us, which means we've had some interactions before this point. Weirdly enough on his card I called him 'Pretty Boy' so went I went to investigate him after morning rounds I was more than a bit surprised to find I would actually call him that now if not for conventional standards of nicknames. Anyways I went and found him and surprisingly enough, he was in the Kendo Club. I tried to get him to join me, and he turned me down flat. I don't think anyone has ever said no to me and meant it so fervently before. I suppose I'll just wait and ask him again some other time. After all there has to be a reason he said no like that right?

      Also, I took my ATs and hid them. Rather I have them locked in a safe I don't know the password to. I also gave the cores of Haku-nii's regalia to Usagi-nee to hold on to. I don't think I have enough resistance to stop myself from riding properly. And I'd like to avoid rebreaking my leg if at all possible. Given this, I am just going to remove that from the equation. I might take up some extra club activities to fill in the open time slots. Perhaps, that will be enough to keep me from doing anything crazy.

    • May 28th
      "It's been a week since my leg broke, and I'm already starting to go stir crazy. I tried to talk to Kanda again. He still wasn't having it. It's starting to become part of my weekly routine. Chasing down the Lotus King and trying to get him to join me, talk to me, acknowledge me. I don't think I've ever worked so hard for another person's attention. It's very weird that he is just saying no to me like that, but I appreciate it. I want him on my team even more now, because I need people like him who can say no to me without flinching. Besides, I am curious about what he rides like. I haven't hung out with him enough to remember. I have to find something we can bond over and maybe then, I can get him to see my point of view. Sometimes, I think I am being too pushy about this, but Mukuro remains steadfast in his belief that this will help. He comes to my office a couple of times a week when he's running with the track team. We talk a bit, and play Shogi. I feel like I am decently good at it, but... I haven't beat him yet. I feel like I'll try really hard one day, and perhaps come a bit closer.

      Also I took up visiting with Akiza-nee too. We do yoga twice a week together. She's got her Regalia back now, and that is good for her. But the stretching is needed to make sure she doesn't pop anything important. She doesn't know that I am just thinking about her long term. I accidentally had a look at her numbers, and they're really good too. So, if she works at it, she'll be a powerhouse. I am kinda looking forward to that.

      Also, it's been a week since I last rode my ATs. I feel a bit bad about that, telling Shoichi I wouldn't be riding, that I didn't want to risk the extra injury. He seemed to understand, but I still can't help but think I've abandoned him in some way. We're friends just like always, and I am happy with that, but sometimes... I feel like I let him down. I wonder if that is a normal part of friendship... but I can't bring myself to ask. I feel like it's weird... But I don't want to think about it too much, because sometimes I feel like I'm searching to make something out of nothing. I'm trying not to just act without taking into account anyone else's feelings. And... I hope that's enough."

    • June 3rd
      "I joined the Kendo Club today. I went by, and surprisingly enough Kanda wasn't there. I wanted to talk to him again, but the guys there, they were all really nice. They noticed me coming by, and thought I might have a crush on the Lotus King. I explained that I didn't, I was simply trying to convince him to be my friend and hang out with me. These boys surprisingly enough, understood my plight. One of them, a more veteran member, seemed to think it would be a good idea for me to join. He said, I'd have a better understanding of Kanda's mindset if I got into one of the activities he was into. Thinking about it from that perspective, I supposed it made sense. So I joined. Is sat out the introductory practice. I wanted to see what they were capable of, and I gotta say I was a little impressed. I wanted them with my special eye (and no I still haven't named it yet). They are all interesting, but I guess I will eventually try and beat them all. Perhaps, I'll even challenge Kanda one day. That sounds like more fun... I've been going about this the wrong way, and I've decided to get to know him a bit before making such demands on him. And perhaps I'll remember something important along the way.

      In other news, things are still really normal between me and Shoichi. In fact, I found second breakfast on my desk this morning and I didn't even question it, I just sat down and enjoyed. I feel like, I'm being spoiled by him, but I'm not sure why that's the case. We haven't really spoken about what happened between us. I don't know if he expects more... or if I am just wishing this was the case. Or if I'm scared and thus ignoring this being the case. I really should just ask, and normally I'm so blunt and aggressive I'd just do it, but... I really don't want to hurt him. I feel torn about it. Not in a deeply emotional way, but in an odd way. Shoichi made no secret of his openness with others, I wouldn't want to demand all of his attention because I wouldn't want to force myself on him. And yes I realize that is a weird thing to say because I was demanding of him in the two situations in which we were like that, but... I didn't expect anything. I don't expect anything. I only ever wanted to be his friend... I liked him for a long time and I was content to push that aside because I knew he liked someone else. I was always willing to just be his friend, so why do I feel like that might not be what he wants?"

  4. #4
    Chiyo's Diary Part 2: The Anti-Gravity Chamber

    This section of Chiyo's Diary covers the time she spent training in the company of the First Generation's Flame King, Kujo Yoichi. It also details her interactions and activities leading up to that moment and the training itself. It is odd that she managed to keep up this particular structured part of her day, but it seems to be something that the small girl is unable to help about herself.

    • June 24th

      "Today was a bit more eventful than I expected. It's been 3 weeks and 4 days and countless hours for me. So, I finally got it in my head to bug Haku-nii about the status of my broken leg. And it was fine. I could finally ride again. And that was the most amazing thing I thought of all day. So I set it up to get my ATs back and have Usagi-nee add in the newer parts. Once everything was where it needed to be, I went to Kendo Club for a bit of downtime. I had already beaten all the other boys but it never hurts to practice. But upon finding my way there, I noticed the appearance of Kanda. He'd already beaten everyone else in combat so I asked him to have a go with me. Apparently, he's normally against taking challenges from newcomers and at first he thought I was just in about the team again. I wasn't. I just wanted to play with him and have a good time. We did this and it made me realize that there is a lot I don't really know about the art of battle. I learned about muscle tension and its giveaways, and that my eye is a bit more of a hinderance to me when I don't know what I'm looking for. I could learn a lot from him, and maybe I will, even if it wasn't from him being on my team.

      After that, I got all fixed up, and to her credit Usagi-nee is doing amazing things with ATs now. I can't even begin to explain how good mine feel compared to the old ones. How right everything is when I move now. It's like being freed from the confines of my own head and set loose upon the world. It was an overwhelming rush, though with it I realized, that I don't really know what I am doing. I appreciate the changes to my ATs though, they make me taller. Seriously I think I'm about 5'4 while wearing them~ It's the best thing to ever happen to me. I really have to do something sweet for Usagi-nee, I was thinking of making her dinner one night, and cleaning up her house if she hadn't done so for herself by now. She seems to be really into her technology, I don't want her neglecting herself in the meantime.

      I also decided to stretch a bit, I took a challenge from someone I had no business fighting. And I know that's an odd thing to say but this man had a team full of women and no discernible traits. So, I challenged him, but being around him, talking to him, ugh, he was a disgusting dick nosed fucker and I couldn't tolerate him. Trying to touch me being a disgusting pig... I lost it. Almost completely. I really don't remember much of the fight... I know I lost though. I lost in a fuckin' cube, and that in and of itself is kind of amazing. But I was so furious I just wanted to punish that guy, in fact... I'm pretty sure the mindset I had was taking being tied to someone disgusting so I could make their life hell while it was so. Fortunately enough, Kanda saved me from myself, got that ugly fucker to agree double or nothing and when he did Kanda beat them all fair and square, I kind of wonder what he had, but thinking about it, he probably had that video Muu-nii took of me a few weeks back. It seems like the kind of meddling that would happen from him, but I didn't really get to question it properly. Kanda lit into me about letting my temper get the best of me, and not properly accessing the situation. The thing was, I knew all the information provided, I just... couldn't deal with how I was feeling. It's really odd but moments like that happen all the time, and I don't even really remember flying off the handle, I just remember the sensation of that burning anger. I wasn't really sure what it was, though I am now.

      Beyond this because of the way my ATs turned out, I ended up calling Roze and asking her how to make fangs. This was before I lost that match, though afterwards I felt like it was needed then more than ever. Nothing like losing in the arena you are best in, to make you reconsider your tactics. In my head, she's the one who probably knows what I mean by that. She's the Sky Queen, she can do everything, and I know full well that fuckfaced brother of mine can't help me do it properly, because his technique is even worse than my own. I ended up going to see her at the Gleaming Crest, and ran into Yoichi on the way. Talking to him is still odd though... it's almost like I feel inclined to be nice to him. I don't understand how I feel about it, but that was fine too. I figured I'd eventually get to understand it. But Roze, she's a whole different kind of monster. She taught me how to 'fang properly' her words not mine. And I gotta say I'm impressed. All that tension straight from the hips, was pretty much the exact opposite kind of muscle control I learned from Kanda earlier as it related so sword swings. I suppose I can make use of them both in some way, but I am not sure how it will work out completely. Not yet, I have only had my ATs for a couple of hours. Roze also forced me to drink and relax in a hot-tub with her. All of that felt normal too, it also still feels really normal to talk with her, and take her advice, almost the same feeling I get when I'm around Yoichi. It's quite strange.

      But that moment of learning to use the Fangs properly brought something else odd. A meeting with the man known as Aomine. I don't know why, but I felt inclined to be nice to him too. But somehow his actions don't lead me to believe the same. I looked at him with my eye, and I couldn't fathom him as a being. My mind can't make sense of his body, his physical prowess and existence. It's infuriating to me, perfection like that shouldn't be allowed to continue. Beyond that, I think he's a bit mad, he definitely almost killed me today, but I was saved again. Surprisingly enough this time by Yoichi. He seemed to be perfectly capable of beating this man, or at least making him back away, though Aomine still wasn't wearing his ATs, which leads me to believe that this man was probably capable of much more than I saw. Even Roze felt the need to have me take the challenge he asked for, even though I didn't want to in the first place. It was annoying... I couldn't help but I still don't know what I am doing, and no one seems to get that. All I want is time to figure myself out...

      After all had cleared up, I noticed that Yoichi's temper is almost as bad as my own, and that I need to fix what's missing in my life. Yoichi suggested training me and I went along with it. And after setting up everything for my absence, I called Shoichi to let him know I'd be going. It seemed that he was having a similar experience himself. I felt odd about leaving him alone, again... I am not sure why, but I always feel weird when I know about Shoichi, like I'm leaving him behind or not doing something. We will have to talk eventually about that, but for now, I'll leave him to his training and me to my own.

      Anyways, Yoichi seemed to want to set up in the Scrapyard, I went there and was greeted by the personality of the Angels that I hadn't met yet. I assume she'd be called the Angel of Destruction, she seems to be a bit of a tomboy, I feel like I could hang out with her. She's kind of interesting to see in such a way, but beyond all that the Angels made a room which was a lot like a tower. No gravity and when I stepping inside, it was like floating on nothingness. Such a fun feeling. Yoichi then began teaching me about my eyes. I learned what to look for, how to react, how to predict movements. It was the right kind of stimulating activity for me. It was fun, but after the first session was over, I got to talking to Yoichi again. This time, it felt too right. I stayed with Shoichi for over a month and I talked to him about everything and nothing, I'm fairly certain that under normal circumstances, he's the only one I talk to that much. Yoichi got a similar kind of reaction from me in that moment, as I was feeling nostalgia and explaining things. And it freaked me out a bit. He explained to me that I am the Brain Charger of his run partner and that is probably why I feel so normal around him. I suppose I can believe that, but it still doesn't feel like the proper explanation. I mean, I feel normal around him, in the same way I feel normal around Roze, like it's not just whatever I get from Jinx, but about exposure to someone closer. And Yoichi and Shoichi share some interesting similarities. And I realize this sounds a bit crazy, but the only real explanation for that, would be if Yoichi and Roze were both part of Shoichi's personality. I wanted to push and ask... but somehow I feel like I shouldn't. I guess only time will tell. But for now...

      I think I'll try and be Yoichi's friend. He seems to need one, actually that was another thing that reminded me of Shoichi about him. I really want to be his friend... it's odd but that is what I want more than anything. Perhaps then I'll be able to figure out what it is about him that I find so attractive."

    • June 25th

      "I am almost positive of my assumption about Shoichi's likeness to this man being rooted in that Brain Charger Project. I woke up to breakfast at the beside, a and beyond that in my usual foul mood. I remembered though, why I'm always upset when I wake up. It's because my mind really wants a cigarette. I'm not even a smoker, I assume now that Jinx is, or was at the time of the experiment. It's strange that I got that sort of habit from her as a kid who wasn't old enough to buy cigarettes. But my older journals used to make mention of me snagging them from unsuspecting adults I'd beaten up. Perhaps that is a thing. But getting back to the important bits, I definitely got breakfast served to me this morning. And it's definitely the sort of kindness Shoichi shows, so I am beginning to wonder how far the likenesses between the pair of them goes. I suppose it will become more obvious over time.

      After breakfast and a shower, I greeted Yoichi, and in so doing had him run from me. It's kind of odd to have such a thing happen while I am making such a marked effort to be kind. It was kind of funny, he just wanted to have a bit of fun with me, and I was okay with that. We played tag again, and since he explained yesterday that he just wanted me to have fun before such a time as I wouldn't be able to. I accepted this as an activity. Beyond that I got to see a touch of who he really was, by way of a snide comment which he apologized for. But... I don't like people giving me apologies, especially ones for being themselves. To be fair, I don't really have a problem with sex or sexual commentary with people I like, it's the unwanted advances when I've already expressed that I don't want them that annoy me. And I feel like that is normal and pretty acceptable. Beyond that I like to keep my private life private, but we're the only ones here, and a bit of flirting never hurt anyone right. I'm kind of certain that counts as flirting anyways, perhaps I'll figure it out eventually. While this happened though, my eyes developed a bit further. I got ripples in them now, and multiple pupils. It's like my eyes are meant to see many things at once, I describe it as having multiple points of vision all crammed together in my head, or layered on top of each other. Right now there are three extra points of vision, and the ripples I think are contributing to my enhanced depth perception. It's kind of amazing.

      But after this development I noticed something odd about Yoichi, he's really sad inside. I say this because I was able to see it all very clearly with my new eyes, in a single moment of his avoiding me. Well, let me be more clear, I think his girlfriend is dead and I think Aomine had something to do with it. He used a cat like move to escape me at first and that was a bit simple, I don't know anyone who moves like that, and I haven't been introduced to anyone like that from the first generation so that person probably doesn't exist anymore. But... he also seemed really remorseful about having to use that road to escape me. I mean, he can fight against me and even get a bit better from it, but he's sad inside. It kind of makes me want to be his friend more, it makes my heart feel a bit better when he smiles. But I have a problem with knowing that information, I am not sure if that is a thing I think, of if it is something that Jinx thinks. Being a Brain Charger is a bit odder than I expected. But I eventually tagged Yoichi today and let him do my nails. We talked all day, and that makes me feel a bit better.

      Having three points of vision is a bit odd too, but its something I am getting used to."

    • July 2nd

      "Today I learned what it was like to face off against another person with an eye. It was my last day of training for the ability to see into the future, as Yoichi put it. But at the moment I would have tagged him the first time, he mentioned something about changing the rules. He told me that he was 'absolute' and that made me feel a bit aggressive. I don't like the idea of others being absolute, but I feel like that will be something to overcome at this point. Beyond that he felt the need to tell me once again how slow my heartbeat is. And I answered back a bit sarcastically. He called me 'cheeky' like it was a characteristic about me he liked. I find that strange... But he told me my abnormally slow heartbeat was something to love something to embrace. It was an oddly direct bit of conversation for him, but it gave me a new perspective. I think... I was always trying to force myself to ride, the way my ATs were. Even while knowing it wasn't right for me, I couldn't find out why it was wrong... now I don't have that problem anymore.

      I think I've found the run style that suits me, I feel like I'm moving freely once again and that is something I didn't think I'd ever really get to say. It's such a uniquely happy feeling, I am sure I could explode with it, but I can't. I simply can't bring myself to express that much emotion at once, I feel like it would overwhelm me, I'd drown in it. So, I tried to keep it in check, so I figure that I will be good. Well, beyond that he also helped me finish developing my eye. Actually that was fun, he did it by forcing blindness. Apparently the logic of this was that if I couldn't really see, I'd have to try really hard. So I went from having six points of vision to a full ten. That is strange to me I can see lots of things all at once, but beyond that I can process everything I see nearly instantaneously. I can't really explain it, but I assume that it will help me over all.

    • July 11th

      "Apparently my eye being finished wasn't enough for Yoichi. He became content to try and teach me a trick of his, first by showing it to me so I would understand it. He hit me twice so I could understand that his trick, makes peoples minds go blank and they lose a few seconds while he does it. But he hit me twice so I convinced him he owed me a full body massage for my pain and suffering. Of course, he probably would have given me that regardless but I liked feeling like I'd gotten over a bit. So, I took that trick and made it a bit better... I made it so that I can just stop people, completely. I used it on him and made him freeze in place for about a minute. It was a strange thing to do to someone I like. And while Yoichi was out I felt the need to do something a little devious so I unlaced his ATs. I mean I had to let him know it worked right?

      So, I am about to preface a statement by saying I am not proud of this. But I kind of got distracted. I have been locked in a room with this man for three weeks. And I haven't done anything properly stress relieving in like 2 months. But... I kind of could see his junk through his shorts. He doesn't wear underwear, so I sort of had a peek at it while he was unconscious. Now, I realize this is an odd thing to do, but I will justify this by saying he would have let me do this if I had asked, I just felt like being a bit devious. I also noticed that his and Shoichi's are about the same size. Well, that isn't right, they are exactly the same size, I would know because I can literally see and remember every detail and that is something I remember. So, he came too and cleared me for my training today, and I... well, I went for a shower intending to clear my head, in preparation for the full body massage, I'd gotten him to agree to giving me after hitting me twice. But then there was the statement that I always shower first, and when I thought about it for a few seconds, he was quite correct. My sense of fairness wouldn't allow me to let it go, so I ended up just telling him he could shower with me. I don't really have a problem sharing a bathroom with anyone, I never have so I didn't think it would be a problem. Of course... I have also never tried to do this while actively finding a person attractive and not already having had sex with them. It was strange, I found myself watching him in the reflections across the shower and I ended up asking for sex, again. Of course, this time I didn't stop it from going all the way though he gave me the option to again. I feel like it's because people are always going in at him, he doesn't care, and beyond that he seemed content to do whatever I want.

      Now, I have absolutely no complaints about this, because... he's amazing. I've never actually gone so long before, and it kind of makes me feel bad for turning down Shoichi's offer to go to 100. Besides that he's quite a strange one, Yoichi, because that entire time he didn't finish. Again, not a complaint, it's not like I intend to have children with this man or anything, but... the part of me that enjoys fairness feels odd about the fact that I know he didn't finish at all. And it wasn't a few minutes or anything, we went on for ten hours, with me deciding what positions I liked and the forcefulness of it. I am amazed by him~ But part of me feels like he doesn't enjoy it as much as we do, and it makes me feel odd, like I forced this on him, but he lives to serve. His words not mine... so I feel like I'd be worse for not accepting the kindness he offered me. I cut this off at 85 which is a new record for me... double plus one~ Again, I had a good time, and he's amazing so I'd definitely go again, but something inside me wants to figure out why he doesn't finish... but there isn't anyone I could ask about it. Strange as it is, its the most curious thing I've ever encountered. Shoichi, finishes, and it's nice... I get to know he enjoys it like I do. Maybe it's connected to the dead girlfriend thing... "


    • July 22nd



      "I've been waking up as myself lately and that has been fun. I am in an astonishingly good mood when this is the case. I even started making breakfast for Yoichi. He probably thinks I am trying to fatten him up, and he'd be right, but I figure, if he gains a bit of weight, when he goes back outside the added muscle will be good for his increased numbers. But I don't really feel like explaining that, nor how I know it will work. It's something I know just looking at him, that he'll benefit from the added muscle which will burn away the residual fat when he starts moving under the constraints of gravity again. It will be nice, I bet he'll thank me when he figures it out, if he even figures it out... I can never really tell if that man is clever or not.

      Anyways, he taught me how to use the Zone, or rather, how to find myself a trigger that wasn't just the death of the person I was facing. I can see how it would be useful, me getting to be myself for the entirety of a fight. And I know it let me sink much further into the Zone. This was only after I challenged him at breakfast though, and when I did, he decided he wanted to spray me with syrup. Of course, that had to be punished with cherries and powdered sugar, as well as the syrup he'd poured all over me. In my head it worked out double plus one, which is the kind of payback I've always been prone to metting out. I feel like it's a Shoichi level stupid that has just rubbed off on me so hard I can't really shake it. That's fine though, I suppose there are worse things to get from Shoichi.

      Beyond this, my Zone trigger the other one, pretty much leads back to dominating stuff. Which is an odd thing to admit, since I know that is what it is, even without someone else to tell me that. But I'm fine with it. It's fun that way, apparently according to Yoichi, I'm supposed to be the Storm Queen. It's really different from just being a road based thing too, it seems to have more responsibility associated with it than one would think. I don't have a problem with it, but I suppose I'll wait for Usagi-nee to say so, before I care to use the title. I mean such things don't really matter to me anyways. So my training is over with that, but I decided to spend a couple more days here, relaxing and maybe letting Yoichi pamper me while I fatten him up a bit more. At least until Shoichi's birthday. I'm glad I actually managed to make friends with him, and that he's really as cool as he is. I wouldn't mind hanging out with him... ya' know since I've had forever to be distracted by his looks and I'm now good not to be completely overrun with thoughts of ravaging him while he sleeps or anything. Strangely enough... I find him to be different from Shoichi, but I kind of miss Shoichi more than I thought I would. Like... everything about him, his stupid, his random innuendo, even that goofy stupid look he gives before he starts ranting about dumb things. I said I liked him, perhaps I meant that more than I realized..."
    • July 27th

      "I left the training area today. It was cool to hang out with and get to know Yoichi, but it was time for me to go. I found myself, leaving with a parting moment given to Yoichi, letting him know I had fun hanging out with him. I felt like it was necessary to let him know this, I figure... if I was better about not being too bitchy all the time, people would know when I'm having fun. After that, I said goodbye to the Angels as well, that came with a kiss. They asked for it, and I am hardly capable of being mean to a nice tuner. I feel like that is rooted in something much deeper than my interactions with the Twins even, I feel like it has something to do with Usagi-nee. Whatever the case my be, I am happy I got to see her.

      Eventually, I found myself in Kyoto, hanging out with Shoichi. It was fun as always and it's his birthday. It was a great thing, we had fun, and apparently he thought he knew the answer to one of my run problems. He's gotten so much better, I can tell already... After we shared a minor play session and some Lemon Oreos (I know! They are a thing right!!~) we ended up at the new house. It was an interesting moment then, because when we ran into Usagi-nee, Shoichi told her to give me Bagram Strike to add to my gear. It was a strange thing to do, and then right after we had a disagreement. Well to be fair, he went super psycho on me, because he found out while I was away that I made it with Yoichi. I had no idea why this would be a big deal, considering he also made it with Jinx, but he was obviously bothered by it. He ran off after, without waiting to see how the tuning turned out. Usagi-nee fixed me up something amazing, my ATs felt so right, I just didn't know what to do, she calls this new one, Crazy Diamond. I am not sure what to make of that name, but I was worried about Shoichi. So I figured out where he was headed and went to make sure he didn't do anything too dumb. It was really easy to find him, I am not sure why, it was like I could understand where he would go when he felt down. I got to watch him basically be freaked out in Brain Charger mode, but he soon came back to himself. He can't help it when he's having fun, I am glad someone else could get him somewhat back to himself. I was a bit worried about him at first but he was playing with the Raidraptors. Those kids are pretty good, they give me hope, but they are still pretty young. They need looking after. I don't just mean the Raidraptors either, I mean all of the little kids.

      After that, I was too excited to sit still anymore, but I felt the need to give Shoichi his space. With this in mind I went out to play a bit on my own. I found myself in the company of Haku-nii. He was cool about everything, he always is. I found myself playing with him and learning a bit more about my regalia. I made a blizzard, it snowed across the entire city. The only real downside to this, was that when my Regalia activated, it shredded by shorts, it seems like it will happen every time and I will eventually need to rethink my clothing choices. It was exciting to witness and I couldn't have been happier in that moment. It was cool, I can magnetize ice and snowflakes, and we built a snowman which I turned into a giant crystal. Playing with Haku-nii makes me realize that people seem to like hanging out with me, even when I am not sure how to hang out with myself. I am trying to get better about it, but it's still a bit weird. I tried to get Haku-nii's thoughts on my developments, and I wanted to ask him about some things I don't understand about people, and about myself as a Brain Charger, but we were interrupted... by Jun'Ichi.

      Jun'Ichi is a complicated person. He never really says anything in a straight forward way, and when talking to him, I often feel like I need a translator. Eventually, I finally put together why he'd come to find me. And it was because he wanted to confess his love for me. He basically asked me to come with, him to stay with him. He wanted a lot from me, and I am willing to give a lot to any of my friends but... I just don't feel anything like that for Jun'Ichi. I don't know why I didn't realize it before, but I really am not into him, as much as he is in to me. And that just seems unfair to me, it'd be wrong of me to take advantage of such feelings. So, I told him so... or rather I let him down as easily as I knew how. I didn't lie to him or anything.... I just let him know I didn't like him like that. I am pretty sure he took it hard, way harder than I would have the other way around. I can't feel bad about it though, I still feel like it was the right thing to do. If you aren't in love with someone, you shouldn't string them along... and I am not even sure what love is, but I know whatever it is... I don't feel it for him.

      Immediately following Jun'Ichi, literally fleeing from my presence, I was confronted my Muu-nii. He felt the need to tell me that I was on a roll in completely demolishing the hopes and dreams of the young men in my life. And while I knew I had hurt Jun'Ichi, I couldn't say anything for the fight Shoichi and I, had before all of this. According to Muu-nii, I am wrecking things constantly, and Shoichi and I were dancing around each other always messing something up. I wasn't sure what he was getting at, but apparently everyone is seeing something that I am not, and I literally see everything. I wanted to drop this subject, because I just didn't know what to say about it, but he was relentless. I guess, if I don't understand... I shouldn't just let it fester. I should ask, but it's weird... yes? I always felt like Shoichi couldn't be that kind of interested in me. I didn't equate sex to anything and I didn't think of him as anything more than a friend. I am wondering if I am wrong about this, and if Shoichi was thinking something different and I just didn't notice. All of this was happening, but I could respect what Muu-nii had to say, and even if I am incapable of showing it on a regular basis, I will in general follow his advice so long as it doesn't cause hurt to anyone else. Beyond all this, apparently Mukuro has figured out what will happen with my Brain Charger state, which he thinks will eventually lead to me having the ability to access Jinx's abilities and memories while staying myself. I think... that will be for the best when it happens, but like everything concerning my Brain Charger state, I am willing to simply let it happen when it needs to. Muu-nii and I parted ways, he left in his usual manner... seeming a bit aloof. I got a problem with Muu-nii and I can't remember why, but I can't decide if he's gay or if he's in a secret not secret relationship with Aki-nee. It's one of them though... I am almost sure of it.

      Whatever the case, the whole city thereafter was soon subject to tremendous gravity. I thought, since I was still out and still feeling energetic, I would do a bit more playing. I expected to find Muscles somewhere in the city, so we could have a good time. But it wasn't him. It was... Kae! I know... Aizen Kae! I hadn't seen him in several years, he was one of those who died, when Ciel-chan did, and I was so stunned that he was standing in front of me. He's fine, and strong... so very strong. He's also scarred. I want to help him, but I don't think I can yet.... maybe one day, but when I saw him we spent some time catching up and playing together. I couldn't help but enjoy the time. Kae and I used to play together a lot, back when we rode under the banner of the Cyclone Striders. I missed him, and for some reason I had no problem admitting this. I am starting to think... I have no problem saying things to people I actually like and respect. I ended up taking a couple of good skills from Kae, and I left again. I intended to head home and just relax.

      I ended up chatting with Usagi-nee, and trying to get her to shift some stuff around in my ATs so that my clothes wouldn't be ruined every time. But she said she couldn't do it. Apparently, there is so much in them now, that it was all she could do to avoid giving me a body suit as my regalia. I suppose I'll accept that and hope it doesn't come down to that. Even so, I would still be ripping up my clothes. I see, a shopping trip in my future and I really don't like it. I hate clothes and doing stuff, I hate looking cute and having to say things to people who just won't leave me alone. It's a distraction I don't think I need in my life. But that is a complete tangent. After bath-time, I found myself standing in front of Shoichi's door. I didn't want to do anything. I wanted to forget about our argument, but... I couldn't help but think, we wouldn't end up mad at each other, if we just talked about stuff once in a while. So... I knocked on his door.

      That was one of the most terrifying moments of my life. I didn't expect him to be there, I didn't expect him to answer. More over, I didn't expect him to seem so hurt when I got there. I just... I really didn't know what to say. I couldn't help but ask why he was mad, because it was obvious to me that he was, and I didn't understand. We ended up talking for quite a while. And when we were finished, I found out that Shoichi thought that my behavior was strange. That he was apparently sold on it because I had taken such an interest in him physically and he thought we were growing into something else. Then we went back to normal, and then I did it with someone else. He didn't feel like it was as special after that, I can't believe he thought that. I never intended to make him feel like that, if anything... I was just always trying to let him be who he wanted to be. I was so busy letting him do what I thought he wanted to do, I hadn't bothered letting him do what he actually wanted to do. I feel bad about it, thinking about it now, like I was just completely lost in what his feelings actually were, because I was too busy trying to interpret his feelings and stay out of them. I think... maybe I should have just let this happen a long time ago, but I couldn't really let myself drown his sorrow. He says he's fine now, but I remember when he wasn't... when he was lost in himself, after Ciel. I told him then to go up and reach for what he wanted... I just didn't realize what he wanted was me. Something about writing that now... makes my heart speed up in my chest. I think, I'm happy he wants me. And I told him he could have me if he wanted me. And I meant it. I feel like I just wasn't respecting his wishes, and even if it all hasn't been worked out yet, I don't think I really want anyone else.

      After all of this emotional junk, I felt like moving and I invited Shoichi along. And just like always, he came along we played together and I showed him all the new stuff I learned. And then, I realized that everything I like about Shoichi I take for myself, including his secondary road. Though mine works exactly the opposite way his does, I just had to have it for myself. It's funny, I am always like that with him. I just want him, and everything that his, I want to be mine. I feel like that's way too selfish to force on him, but I am way too into this now, for this to be something I back out of. Shoichi spent a chunk of the night teaching me Wind Manipulation. I have no idea why, I don't know what to do with it, it seems like one of those things I shouldn't have. It's like way too much for the kind of aggressive person I am. But... it's too late to back out now. I feel like I've been saying that a lot lately, but somehow I feel like this will all work out in the end. Shoichi and I are back on the same page I think... so... I'll just trust him like I always have."

  5. #5
    Chiyo's Diary Part 3: Prelude to the Gram Scale Tournament


    This section of Chiyo's Diary, covers the decision of all to participate in the next Gram Scale Tournament. Beyond this, it covers all activities leading up to the Parts Wars and her own struggles to find herself among the sea of the preconceived notions about her.

    • August 5th

      I've not written here for days. And I am surprised I let it go on for so long. I really don't have much of an excuse, so I figure I should start at the beginning. The day after I left my training, the 28th, I ended up waking up in Shoichi's bed. I don't remember how I do there exactly. I think... I have a hard time sleeping by myself. I just don't feel right, so I slept there with him after his birthday, and I woke up and ended up leaving. I woke the twins with a text and dangled over them the ability to go shopping so they'd wake up. But... I had another issue to work out, which was that my bangs had gotten too long, they were in my line of vision. So.... I texted Yoichi. I went to him at the remodeled Gleaming Crest. And while I was there I got him to hook me up with a new hairstyle. He also noted I was tense (probably from that wind manipulation training) and offered me a massage. I took both of these things, and then he said he could hook me up with clothes too, once I explained. So, that happened. There were some strange moments in here, like him implying that I was a bad friend for not bugging my friends for stuff more often (he includes himself in this) apparently people want to feel needed. I suppose, if I think about it like that, I can understand why everyone always seems so weird to me. In that moment, he reminded me so much of Shoichi, I almost called him an asshole to his face, for keeping from me his involvement in the Brain Charger Project. But whatever, I suppose he has his own reason for keeping that information to himself. By the time the day ended, I had myself a nice massage, new clothes, new jewelry, new makeup, and painted nails. It was kindo of amazing. I couldn't even argue, I looked adorable, also he helped me grow my pigtails even longer and I have straight bangs to frame my face. I am quite happy with the way I look, but I feel like I am too cute. Whatever the case. I left that place with a bunch of information I didn't have before (like the lingering knowledge that Yoichi can manipulate the wind too, and probably someone else as well...

      Anyways, after this, I ended up playing Tag with Shoichi. I wanted to show him what he could do with his eyes. And he caught on so quick. I am always a bit jealous when people do stuff better than I do, so it has hard on my ego. Apparently I owe Shoichi a strip show following that particular endeavor because he did actually manage to catch me without too much fuss. But that was fine, because it felt right. It was really weird though, he captured me by my bottom and he kinda started to feel me up. Surprisingly enough, I wasn't against any of this, I wanted to know what more was coming, I was excited about it. But at the last possible second Shoichi pulled away. I managed to keep my temper under control, so I got an explanation. Apparently, Shoichi didn't want second place to Yoichi. Such a thing is a completely ridiculous idea to me, I don't see it. But whatever, in typical Shoichi fashion, he went completely overboard, he said he'd make me forget anything that happened with Yoichi. That he'd give me, double plus one times three. Now I don't know how the fuck I was supposed to respond to such a thing, but I couldn't help but be on board. So that's what I'd been doing for a week.

      And this is going to sound very strange, since I definitely didn't sleep for almost 5 or 6 days. But it never felt like a chore, or like I was missing anything. I was having so much fun and it was amazing to me, because we were both having fun. Shoichi, is exciting and full of new ideas and stuff I wanna do and be apart of. And beyond all that, even beyond just the sex, which was absolutely amazing. There were these moments where he took his time, where he stared me in my eyes and held me close and made me feel so special, vulnerable, soft, and perfect. Where we melted in together and it felt too right for me to want to stop. I became so jealous, so possessive, I never want him looking at anyone else that way. And it made me realize all I really want, and all I've ever really wanted is him. I am not sure how to say that, or sure if I can even express it, but I know for a fact that I like sex, but I adore being so close to Shoichi, feeling wanted like that... there isn't anything better. Sometime during this, when we finally finished up, I bit him, it was deep, it will probably scar. I took care of it for him afterwards and he told me that he wanted me to admit that he was the best, that this was his entire intention when he suggested the week. But... he's the most important person in my life, I am not sure how he didn't know that. I just told him so, and I suppose, I'll do a better job of showing him so. It's hard, I don't know if I could ever properly explain to him how he makes me feel. Though I suppose, he's the only person I've ever bitten in my entire life, so... that's a thing right?

      After that I slept for a full day and woke to an amazing breakfast. I thought about some things, but ended up just attending the Black Order meeting and setting up to catch up on all the activities I missed while I was giving my undivided attention to Shoichi. I got a series of text messages from Muu-nii which were hilarious. I will log them here for posterity and so I can laugh the next time I read this.

      Muu-nii:
      Shogi?
      Muu-nii: Shogi?
      Muu-nii: Anytime.
      Muu-nii: Done yet?
      Muu-nii: Seriously?!

      That was worth a giggle when I finally saw it, Muu-nii is impatient but I suppose I should have expected this. Anyways, I went to the Twins' place then to the meeting. They were finally finished with our special project, so I figured I'd show the core team and give them access. At their place, I made sure they had on the right clothes, but, they were both obsessed with my hair and makeup. It's like they know I am wearing different clothes and they haven't seen them yet. But whatever, it's not really worth talking about. After the meeting we went to the secret base under the park. And something strange happened. Someone came in after us, and it wasn't a rider or a challenger. It was... my dad. He gave me a late birthday present in the form of a small fox like thing. His name is Minion. My father made this name up on the spot. He's such a strange man, but I like him. He challenged me too, so I took it. I am fairly certain he likes me, he taught me his special skill and let me hunt Fuckface. It was an amazing afternoon. I also met my mother. She's interesting, it's like looking at myself in an older mirror. They are apparently Hunters. If I had to guess, I'd say of people, but they do animals too, it isn't surprising then that Fuckface didn't introduce us before. It's very obvious Otou-chan is disappointed in him, and it's obvious I am more like them than I will ever be like him. But I think I could get used to interacting with them. My eyes are his, hers, and Fuckfaces. So they took theirs back and I gave Fuckface his as well. Now all I have is what I should have had, but the form is kind of limited. I feel like my eyes were just moving really fast, which is why I had multiple points of vision, I don't really, they are just so fast. I got used to being able to push them really far, but... I can't do that anymore. I suppose since Otou-chan says the eyes respond to a need, they won't develop anymore until I really need them to. I am okay with that though. I feel like I am probably a hunter in personality at least, soon enough I'll have the skills to go with it. I feel like my parents know more about me than they should. But I couldn't help but be honest with them.

      They say my eyes are the wrong color, or rather they know how they became this color. If I am interpreting their reasoning right, my eyes are purple because Shoichi's are and I am constantly looking him in the eye. I think... that is the most obvious admission of affection, any person can have to who they like. Shoichi's kinda dumb though so I doubt he's noticed. It'd embarrass the fuck out of me if Shoichi ever figured it out. I guess, it's fine though... I am ready for anything now. And I think... I am almost done. Almost ready to dominate everything in sight. My parents will help me if I find them, I might take them up on that one day, but I can't show up empty handed. So I'll figure out what this form of the Mangekyou can do for me first. But that is for later, right now... I am going to sleep. And yes, in Shoichi's bed, I am not even going to bother trying to fall asleep in my own.

    • August 7th (Chiyo writing after returning from making sure the young Flame Queen had reached her destination)

      "I lied.



      I despise myself for it, but I know that it is something I did. While I was riding around Tokyo, taking in the old sights and places I used to be, I came across this playground I used to frequent. This spot, was where I met Shoichi... again, after the Tower. And being there reminded me of the conversation we'd had more than a week ago, when he explained to me the error of my ways in thinking about him and how he considered his own life. When he told me he was free as a bird but even he appreciated having something to go home to, it was something I thought I didn't understand. But... I did.

      I know exactly what he meant by that, because I also wanted someone to call home. And I chose him, but I didn't commit to it fully. Or rather I couldn't bring myself to at the time because I knew about him and Lycielle and well him and everyone else. I set myself aside, thinking that I could just be his friend. Just be something different, a voice of reason, something he also needed, but I didn't need to be that for him. A thought like that wasn't mine... it was the voice in my head. The other me... the Brain Charger me, the one who saw her best friend and knew how he interacted with everyone else and didn't want to ruin his fun. The girl who loves her best friend and has within her the altruism to let him do what he feels like regardless of the consequences. The girl that has the strength of character, to know where she stands and feel alright with it, because she loves complicated too. The woman who watched him fall apart and stood by to extend her hand and help him put the pieces back together. That girl, is the one I thought I was, but it isn't the one I am. I'm a different beast entirely, selfish, self-loathing, and spiteful. I could love a man who was in love with a ghost, but I couldn't let him know that even if it helped him, because... it would have hurt me.

      The truth is, I've always liked Shoichi and everyone else probably knew that, but I couldn't bring myself to admit it, because I knew. I knew I admired him. I knew I loved him. I knew when he saved me from myself, that day he saw me on the swings all alone. I knew that him taking that moment, that small moment... that almost insignificant amount of time out of his day to come talk to me, even while I was hurling insults and fangs at him was something that started a feeling of blossoming within me. I could feel it like the wind against my skin, that pulsing breeze of a thing. I could see him like the light at the end of the tunnel. I knew a long time ago I felt something for Shoichi, and I suppressed it, like I do everything I can't make sense of. And because of this, I know I lied. Shoichi told me a week ago I had a problem admitting he was always at the center of my vision, and he was right. I couldn't do it, and even though I am writing this here, I still might not be able to...

      I adore him and he is always the center of my vision. He'd feed me, joke with me, hang out with me... even when I couldn't be bothered to do these things for myself. He made me feel like a real person when before I felt like a shadow. I wanted to help him, I wanted to see how far he could go. This boy who lit up the sky for me, took me up and showed me the stars... kicking and screaming. But at the time, I couldn't accept anything else. If I am being honest, I didn't think I deserved his attention and I didn't think I wanted it. (We got into a fight over that, and I decided not to question it...) but I realized a while ago, that I'd always questioned it. Put it off like it wasn't really meant for me. "He's a pervert." "He shows his dick to everyone," "He doesn't really want me," "He grabbed my chest when we fell together but it doesn't mean anything. He would do that to anyone," and this is all true to the best of my approximation. But...

      I think I see it differently now. He did all these things, but I didn't want any part of them because I knew I liked him. And I knew I could just be his friend and not have to deal with the complications of anything else, if I didn't let anything taint our friendship. I always felt really good when Shoichi noticed me, but I thought I didn't want to. I didn't want to be the one he came to because he didn't have what he wanted. I didn't want to be second place girlfriend to a ghost. So, I'd be his best friend instead. That was my selfishness. I didn't allow myself to see his advances as him offering me anything, as him being stupid and trying to give me more. I saw it as him trying to make our relationship like the ones he had with everyone else. And I didn't want that... I wanted to be special. I still can't actually know if I am... but I realized the idea that I might not be scared me. It turned the idea of romance between us into something to run from, and so I ran. I allowed myself to do this, even though I am not afraid of anything.

      I showed cowardice.

      I ran from my own feelings and Shoichi's as fast as my legs would carry me, because I was scared that the light feeling I got around him, the giddiness that let me feel like he was the best thing in the entire world, would drop me. It'd let me fall from the stratosphere with the wind at my back. And at first it would feel freeing. Like the wind always does, but the longer it went on, the more I began to feel like I'd eventually fall, that my body would smash against the ground and I'd be left, battered and broken. I wouldn't be able to pull myself together after that. If he saw me like everyone else, I could become disposable. He could find someone new to have sex with, to hang out with, to run with. And I'd be left all alone in that hole he found me in. Only this time I wouldn't be able to get out. There'd be no light left to pull me out of it there'd be no hand I could take that would make me feel like it'd be alright. I'm not like that strong girl, I don't have it in me to let go. So I held on to my feelings, pushed them down so deep I'd never have to acknowledge them and let it fester. I had sex with Shoichi twice to make sure it wasn't just a fluke. I had sex with Yoichi because I really wanted to, and he reminded me of Shoichi without all of my emotional baggage. But I think... the baggage is what makes me like Shoichi. It's not just that he's got a marvelous tongue or a nice dick (though those are things I don't think I would go without having been given them already). It's that he hangs out with me and feeds me (even when we aren't doing anything else). That I'm sure he enjoys our sex just as much as I do... it's that I know I am getting exactly what I need. Even if it wasn't initially on my wants list.

      Shoichi showed me what kind of person I could be. What kinds of things I could like. I liked it rough, he showed me I could like the gentle and soft approach, he showed me how much I could adore him, and that is what I was afraid of. Because after he gave me that... how could I share him again? How could I want to? I realized after this time, that after the first two times, I allowed us to go back to our strained version of friendship. I went back to my emotional baggage, because I understood it. Because I knew I could deal with how we were. I knew I didn't have it in me to tell him I wouldn't share him. I claimed that I didn't want to lock him up, or stop him from doing what he wanted. And I lied.

      All I want is to chain him to me forever. It's in the kiss, in the collar, in the bite mark I left on his shoulders. In the fact that I've never slept in my own bed since we moved into this house.

      It's in the color of my fucking eyes.

      I have to look at myself everyday and know, I adore him so much I want him all to myself. And I still don't know how to say it."


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