Oh, what was this? Rather sudden influx of absolute nothingness which felt like everything. For just a moment Kolin was certain she'd lost consciousness, she felt like her body was on fire, drowning, being torn to pieces, put back together, scattered to the winds... there was nothing she didn't feel for just a split second. And then just as quickly as it had arrived, with the snap of Malleus' fingers, it was gone. She held her face, touched her forehead, checked herself for existence. Yes, she was definitely all still here. What the hell was that? She hadn't even had time to scream in the moment. Was she truly nothing? When she was a goddess surely nothing like this would ever have an effect on her. Ah, but this one was talking again wasn't he? Claiming that she was nothing... he claimed he would raise her? That is what she brought him here for. Alright. As long as they were on the same page. Yes, she was still half listening, she'd heard what she needed to she could continue. "Whatever, as long as I get what I want... I don't really care."
That was very true. It was all she was, her own desire, pushing her further and further towards the goal she set for herself. People might have found it admirable if she wasn't the sort of person to crush underfoot literally any individual she could to reach that goal. How gross people were to think people had to be kind to get where they wanted. No one was kind, no one was nice. Good things didn't happen, humans were disgusting creatures... who only took to make due. "Lust?! Gross..." Well, she wasn't particularly learned, she hadn't figured out that lust wasn't only sexual, mostly but not only. Her longing and desire were the most obvious forms of her lust. Her desire for power was one of its best showings... ah but she didn't really understand that. "No! Nothing about that is clear. What the hell does any of that actually mean? Like a left over power is making my human faces go crazy... and you're planning on fixing that somehow?" Yep, that very simple understanding with none of the underlying nuances. That was indeed how this woman thought. Maybe being around a man like this would help her out a bit? Maybe it wouldn't... whatever the case, she was now not capable of ranting, she was feeling something near stroking at the depths of her heart. Well, not exactly, she was certain he wasn't actually touching her heart, but she felt it in her chest as surely as she felt anything. She clutched at the strange sensation, it was weird, she didn't know whether she wanted it to stop or continue. "I don't really need to understand if it helps me. If I don't have to get rid of a face every five years to avoid making irrational decisions... whatever." Yep. Disinterest in anything but what she was looking for. She didn't want anything associated with all this extra thought. Her life as a goddess hadn't been anywhere near this complicated. The Age of the Gods would come again, and she'd be back where she belonged with everything she wanted.