The torment of Jeanne d'Arc wouldn't be ending any time soon. Even now she was given a choice and it was only the illusion of choice as explained by the Nexus itself. The first of the statements concerned the lack of normalcy in the child itself. That was fine and all but the last thing she wanted to explain to anyone was an immaculate conception. Beyond all of that there was the matter of this child's potential life. Stuck with Anu, used by him for its connection to the Nexus. Of course, after tarnishing Jeanne's name, and telling everyone that she was consorting with demons, it would all come down to him wanting access to the Nexus which he didn't naturally have. Other spoilers came in the form of the idea of another being taken advantage of but it not being a world ending problem. Apparently he could cycle the kid back into the system and another person would suffer instead, but it would leave Jeanne unrooted in the world. He couldn't see all the way around that completely but did have some pointed words about the sort of people who could deal with beasts and those who would be the ones most likely sent to do something about Jeanne. A chuckle came from her then because she knew why that would be the thing misunderstood. She knew her siblings, she knew them well... they'd destroy the whole world before harming her, if her messing with her own fate was a black spot in his vision. Anything that could end in one of the Hoshimi siblings having to kill their youngest sister was... a black hole.
Jeanne was angry and stewing and it wasn't getting any better. It did nothing but build her hatred. She wouldn't be putting her siblings through anything unnecessary, she already knew her current state was distressing enough to them, though none of them would say so. She wouldn't be putting an innocent in harm's way, that wasn't the type of person she was, even now. So the truth of the matter was she wouldn't be getting past this point without having a baby. Did it matter that it would be a precious light in the world? No, she expected nothing less at this point, between her immediate family and her friends, no child would grow up unhappy nor wanting for anything in life. Free to explore, free to be, and become... she imagined a child of hers would be especially free-spirited and likely spoiled to death if the actions of Gilgamesh and Artoria were to be considered the standard. "Going against fate isn't dangerous, allowing someone to be both that powerful and that shitty is the problem..." she stated. "This isn't a choice, even as I am now, I'm not so shitty as a curse a kid to dealing with him. I wouldn't keep them from the life I know they'd have around my family and friends, even if I find it to be particularly annoying to me," she stated. Ah but there was still Charles. He'd do what caused the least harm, she supposed that was like him. He even admitted to mostly sitting on the fence for the last thousand years, so... first she'd address his thoughts. "That one is stuck with the weird time travel people, you know the ones who go back and fix things and end up talking about how some ridiculous shit has to happen for the greater good. You know, like why you can't kill baby Hilter and all that jazz," she scoffed. "Fine. Kid, for us that I am going to figure out how to explain to everyone and hopefully not wreck the rest of my life because some idiot god can't stop being a fuck up," she said. It was the path were the fewest people would be inconvenienced, what was another bit of suffering for herself?