After a few seconds, Benihime took note of Daiki's stance, and waited for words. She couldn't predict exactly where this conversation was going, but she knew it would probably be for the best if they both weren't in a constant state of dazed and confused by their partings. When he went on to speak, and say he'd listen to her, her body lost a tiny bit of the tension she'd not known she'd been holding, beyond this he claimed that he was incredibly confused when she'd rather suddenly disappeared during the swarming of Menos. "Gomen, admittedly... I just didn't want to start crying when there was a huge battle going on," she said her right hand finding a home against the back of her head while her left hand came to rest on the hilt of her Zanpakuto. This wasn't particularly a threatening move, it was instead something she did to comfort herself and something she found herself doing more and more often without realizing it.
"So, this is going to sound really strange," she said knowing the words about to leave her mouth wouldn't make any sense, but somehow she hoped the boy would simply take the things she was about to say at face value. "But my family was cursed, as a member of it, I am likely fated to die really young," she said seemingly calm about it now. "Sometimes, I don't feel like that is true, but other times I feel like it's the only truth I can know in life. That day, among the Menos was one of the days I believed," she said thinking about it from a scientific perspective it was almost preposterous. "And at the times when I don't think I am going die really young and not accomplish anything, I think I might be responsible for a lot of deaths, and I just... didn't want to be responsible for yours too." she said as her palm rested against the hilt of her Zanpakuto. Her statement hinted that she might have felt personally responsible some deaths. And she did, mainly the death of her immediate family. "I didn't want to lie to you, and tell you I'd wait for you, when half the time I'm not even sure my own mortality is within my control," the girl said and after she was finished she exhaled. Having said all of that she couldn't necessarily say she felt better, but she also felt more like she hadn't simply left the boy she'd called hers dazed and confused in the wake of who she was as a person.